Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.

I feel like screaming and crying and pulling out my hair. I feel like jumping off a bridge or screaming at everyone who has ever hurt me in my life and caused me trauma and made me who I am. But all I can do is sit here in silence and not move a muscle because I know if I start to give in to any feelings I’m having it will not end well for me. That’s why I just sit here and don’t move. As long as I sit here and keep my thoughts alone in my head unspoken I can keep it together.